Wednesday, November 10, 2010

My Flag's Flying Today For All Vets


I'm making a conscious effort these days to resist looking back at my life with regret. It's impossible, of course, to go back and change anything, so what's the point?

On this Veteran's Day, however, there is something on my mind I'd definitely do differently, if I could. I wish I'd spent more time talking to my dad.

Isn't it remarkable how our perspective of life changes with our age? When my dad passed away at 64, not once did it enter my mind that he was "too young." It just seemed like he got old and died, like people do, end of story. Now, his death seems almost tragically premature. He wasn't much older than I am.

He was a quiet guy; it was hard to get him to talk about his WWII days and I never persisted questioning him out of respect, I suppose. But how I would love to know what was going through his mind on the night of June 5, 1944, the eve of the D-Day Invasion.

I inherited my dad's uniform, shown above, after my mom passed away last year. With it came a treasure of his WWII memorabilia, such as flight logs, photos, and his "short snorter." My dad took this small black-and-white photo of one of his crew mates, Cpl. Howard Bell, posing on a destroyed German bomber at their Chateaudun base. 

A pilot in the 94th Troop Carrier Squadron, Dad was preparing to fly a huge, black-and-white-striped, unarmed cargo plane across the English Channel to Nazi-occupied France. The weather had been terrible, but everyone wanted the invasion to get underway. They were tired of waiting.

That's my dad inside his C-47 in the other old photo, helping men of the 101st Airborne board on the eve of D-Day. The paratroopers were heavily weighed down with all their gear. This shows a lot about Dad's character; the other pilot is just standing there in his life vest, waiting, his back to the photographer.

Once over his designated drop zone above Normandy, Dad had to turn on a green light,  the signal for about 40 men of the 101st Airborne to jump out of the plane into the darkness, smoke, flak and deafening noise of battle. I know their safety had to have weighed heavily on my father's heart that night -- and for the rest of his life.

Those are the guys my father could hardly talk about in later years, except to say, "They were the brave ones, not me," sometimes adding, teary-eyed, "those poor suckers."

My dad did not drop them in the wrong place, from what I've been told. There was just so much "heavy ack," smoke, and confusion that the men were clearly jumping into "the mouth of Hell."

Most combat veterans I've known downplay their own wartime service. They point to pictures of long, neat lines of white headstones and say, "I didn't do anything; they did." You know, probably even if I'd had more time with him, Dad wasn't going to go there with me, ever.

So if you ever hear some guy in the back of a bar bragging about being in combat in some foreign war zone, I'll bet he's lying just to impress his buddies.

Real combat vets, at least all the ones I've known, not only don't flaunt it, they hardly ever bring it up. It's not something they want to dwell on.

This is their one day of the year, though, to be reminded of their bravery and service. If you see a vet today, just smile and say, "Thanks." That's probably good enough; we don't want to cause discomfort. 

But tonight, just take a second to ask God to bless and protect them all. They've earned it.

7 comments:

  1. Beautifully written Donna. God bless them all...

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  2. I have long decided that for a soldier to serve in war is not asked to risk giving up his life (that is easy) he is asked to risk losing part of his soul. He may come back with the loss of part of his humanity. That is why veterans cannot talk about it. Supressing it in silence is a way of scaring over the wound.

    I am impressed with old vets who finally risk talking about the war half a century before. In Holland, Canada is much revered for it's military effort to liberate that country. I am moved to tears when I see old warriors just standing and crying, after all these years, before the graves of those who did not come home.

    The Dutch to this day teach their young people, two generations on, of what the Canadians did for them.
    They never miss a chance to thank us to this day. It is humbling.

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  3. Much love to your Dad's memory.

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  4. Beautiful tribute...to your dad and to all veterans. Oh yes, please bless and protect all those serving our country.

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  5. Well said!! A beautiful tribute to your father and all our service men and women. God bless them!!

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  6. A beautiful post, Donna. I can relate to the loss of your father at a rather young age. My Dad died at 52. I was heartbroken, but my Mother lost her whole life without him. I was so sad for her. They had a wonderful love affair with eachother.
    I can't imagine the pain you must have felt loosing both your Husband and Mother on the same day. I'm truly sorry for your loss.

    Hugs and blessings,
    Pam

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  7. I love this post Donna. My father-in-law was a WWII vet and POW. Like your dad, he was a pilot and flew a B17 bomber. He died when he was 70, and I had only been married to my husband a few years and did not get to know him very well. Like your dad, Bud did not talk about the war with his family. I think there was too much pain and loss.

    I hope you are doing well and things are improving with your son! I really do think of you often and keep you in my prayers!

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